It has always been difficult to tell anybody my dislikes. I'd figure out that I could get along with anything that comes up in my way but when I'm by myself, it gave me time to ponder upon what i really like and dislike...
Here is a list of what i do not like!!! ~~
1~ hardly able to say 'NO' at most of the time!
2~ disruption of privacy....(but it's ok)
3~ the fact that I'm ok with everything...(see like number 2)
4~ a person who doesn't keep to his or her words.
5~ someone trying hard to be better than me
6~ me being compared with another who is totally different from me...(haha)
7~ me always wanting to satisfy others (errrr..habits that i can't dispose)
8~ my addiction to chocolate..(i just want a piece but it will be the whole bar)
9~ people being happy when i lose in something(especially my dreams..its ok!)
10~ me don't know what i want...
11~ me feeling guilty easily sometimes even for a no-no reasons
12~ me not understanding me..(crap!)
13~ me confused..(grr!)
14~ noises..(annoying!) but not musics :))
15~ show offs..
16~ me being told to do things i do not like doing (but it's ok!! :))))) )
17~ people who stares at me!!! (its ok if you at least smile..)
18~ liars...(truth never hurt as much as lie does)
19~ people with no sensitivity
20~ being betrayed.
21~ hypocrites..
22~ my sensitivity!!
23~ me faking strength..but i AM strong!! ha!
24~ me sometimes tooo feminine..and sometimes a tom-boy (with long hair :D lol..split personality..i kinda like it,..don't count this one)
25~ people who is sometimes hot then cold (like Katy Perry sung)
26~ people who underestimate my potential...
27~ too much praises..but its ok (i like it..sometimes hehe)
28~ me feeling insecure
29~ me being shy to eat in front of people except my family
30~ me being pampered too much!....haaaa.....
31~ people who talks but aren't brave enough to do what they say (don't action speak louder?!)
32~ man who acts like boy...(grow grow! gurls need you! ahahha)
33~ lady who acts like baby..emm it's ok.. BUT with just anybody??? (eeew..lalala~~)
34~ people who judge me without being my friend first or knowing me first!!
35~ distraction when im studying!!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Confidence via musics or heels??
The sound of violin could just freeze me and my thoughts and totally drift me elsewhere, probably into a world where all dreams just keep coming true and all the sadness and tremors are just cast into a little box, labeled with your identities and stored in a room specially made for it. And when the piano joins in, it makes you skip, smile and laugh, just like chasing butterflies in a garden filled with loads of colourful pretty little flowers. Somewhere in the midst, a guitar ensures the creation of bond between one of us with the nature and the surroundings. The beat of the drum makes everything more alive and maybe that is why i just love to indulge myself into musics.
Nevertheless, it is not just me who feels this way, there are many out there who covers themselves with musics too. It inspires me to keep living and believing. It's not that I'm hiding from the real world. I love the challenges that comes in my way. I get what i need from musics and charge in for reality, just like tools that needs to be charged. Back then, in college, I always had my headset hanging around my neck and attached to my blackSony Ericsson , W910i. It would be plug in my ears whenever I am walking alone as there is nobody to talk to at that particular moment. In that case, it does help me to walk with confidence. ;)) it definitely made me a chirpy bird when I gang up with my friends.
But, i come to wonder sometimes, is this really me? Would I still be walking with confidence without musics in my ear. Would I still be the chirpy bird when I meet up with my friends? So, to diminish my little wonders, I decided to test myself one fine day. I walk to class by myself, without my headset in my ear. I felt like I'm being noticed from every corner. There were varieties of eyes and its not pretty nice when someone keeps on staring at you and when you suddenly look at them they still continue staring and you had to let out a smile just to make the situation a little more comfortable. *sigh* ''why cant they be the one that smile first? ''
I noticed more people around me without my headsets in my ear and the stare they'd give me for a no-no reason. The non-secured feeling would start arousing in me and that's when I walk looking down at most of the time. Thankfully, I'm still the same gurl when I'm surrounded by my friends.
The whole day tested without my headset ended when I finally get back to my room at my dorm. A tiring day it has been, with lectures, tutorials and experiments to handle. Thus, upon reaching my room, i hung my bag at my chair and drop myself down into the exact same chair at my study table, planning the night that was approaching. When I was finally done, I thought about who I am and that walking with confidence only when there is musics playing just doesn't seem to be right. I need the confidence even without musics. So, I came up with a plan that no headset until I feel secured and comfortable of my surroundings. But guess what, little did I know, that the next day I'd end up walking with my friends, and so is the next day, and next and next until college finally comes to an end. Funny isn't it how things just happen by itself. Anyhow, I've discovered that I've got something to work on-walking with confidence.
Fortunately, I realised that I felt this way only in college, because when I'm back home, I didn't need music to walk with. All I need was my heels! I hardly wore my heels in college, but I'm a heel addict. Plus, you walk in public, people do notice you but it's not like you are gonna see the same person again and again. It's not the same situation in college.People notice you and they keep noticing you for a couple of time. So, I finally came up with a conclusion that is, music helps me keep away from noticing people noticing me! :DD
Nevertheless, it is not just me who feels this way, there are many out there who covers themselves with musics too. It inspires me to keep living and believing. It's not that I'm hiding from the real world. I love the challenges that comes in my way. I get what i need from musics and charge in for reality, just like tools that needs to be charged. Back then, in college, I always had my headset hanging around my neck and attached to my black
But, i come to wonder sometimes, is this really me? Would I still be walking with confidence without musics in my ear. Would I still be the chirpy bird when I meet up with my friends? So, to diminish my little wonders, I decided to test myself one fine day. I walk to class by myself, without my headset in my ear. I felt like I'm being noticed from every corner. There were varieties of eyes and its not pretty nice when someone keeps on staring at you and when you suddenly look at them they still continue staring and you had to let out a smile just to make the situation a little more comfortable. *sigh* ''why cant they be the one that smile first? ''
I noticed more people around me without my headsets in my ear and the stare they'd give me for a no-no reason. The non-secured feeling would start arousing in me and that's when I walk looking down at most of the time. Thankfully, I'm still the same gurl when I'm surrounded by my friends.
The whole day tested without my headset ended when I finally get back to my room at my dorm. A tiring day it has been, with lectures, tutorials and experiments to handle. Thus, upon reaching my room, i hung my bag at my chair and drop myself down into the exact same chair at my study table, planning the night that was approaching. When I was finally done, I thought about who I am and that walking with confidence only when there is musics playing just doesn't seem to be right. I need the confidence even without musics. So, I came up with a plan that no headset until I feel secured and comfortable of my surroundings. But guess what, little did I know, that the next day I'd end up walking with my friends, and so is the next day, and next and next until college finally comes to an end. Funny isn't it how things just happen by itself. Anyhow, I've discovered that I've got something to work on-walking with confidence.
Fortunately, I realised that I felt this way only in college, because when I'm back home, I didn't need music to walk with. All I need was my heels! I hardly wore my heels in college, but I'm a heel addict. Plus, you walk in public, people do notice you but it's not like you are gonna see the same person again and again. It's not the same situation in college.People notice you and they keep noticing you for a couple of time. So, I finally came up with a conclusion that is, music helps me keep away from noticing people noticing me! :DD
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Bizarre Entrance
Never thought that i'd actually be blogging though had been wanting to do it since a long-long time ago. been finding my way in but never got through due to limited excess of time. and just look at what i've named my blog--'never say goodbye'. will change that when free time is granted and that will be like when????---even i ain't sure!. so..... guess a little intro bout me!
name--kameelia....
*famously* known as kameelia (back in school), in college its just kamy/camy. i have some non-frequently used nick such as emmm...Millie, Emilly. Emily came from the Exorcism of Emily Rose..lolx..it waz from my friend who was obsessed with that movie. Allright, born in the month of May, date 28th and in the year 1991. Live with both my parents (except for when im in college). Have an older sis and a younger brother. i live by plenty of policies, one of it is family first. more policies as i blog ;)) (so tune in often :P)
i have dreams..i dream all the time..i have some ''impossible'' dreams. cuz we dwell in the world where some dreams needs attributions from other characters and where im at and with whom im surrounded with..its just equal to impossibility ~)
im 18, naive at times bt aint as naive as i was at the age of 16. i learn a lot as far as i could recall but i know there's more to learn. i have my ups and downs. who doesnt??? we dont talk bout things that hit us hard in our past. do we??? people say 'FORGET YOUR PAST'..n i say 'action speaks louder than words' ;)
i believe every little things intertwined with something else. like....me and myself. (dunno if u get me but im just writing my heart out ;) ) i believe in miracle very much (even when othrs dont) and most importantly, i believe in God and both my beloved parents. im learning the meaning of life as i live through it every second. im trying to understand myself at all times. im afraid of CERTAIN things in life..and that will be a SECRET. :P hehe well, yeah im a little secretive! so take a little effort to know me!
im flexible as in anybody can befriend me. do i judge my friends???? yup i do! bt im always searching for the positive attributions in them. i cant spend time listing down their negativity..that's not call life..and plus there's plenty of people to do that. so ill do something different. hehe.
my hobbies..i cant really list 'em all down cuz i have such a long list..Basically, i love anything that involves a great expenditure of adventures ;) such as travelling. i have a list of places that i dream off..list is actually in my head. shall i list it down here?? hehehe..alright Pakistan, India, rome (italy), switzerland, australia, singapore, and of course dearest Macca.and the list shall go on.....Pakistan and India---thats where my ancestors are from and i still have relatives in pakistan at lahore. so, i have to get to know them or else that will be one wasted part of life. i love psycology and predicting the thought of others and basically reading out their characters..but i have friends better than me in doing that. im nt a pro but i guess i just enjoy part of it. lolx. i play the guitar and sooner or later it shall be the piano too. Musics--real important!!! it colours a dull life. i listen to all-all-all sort of songs by various artists and whats playing on my hp depends a lot on my mood! ;))
yep, i find every second of life very important and live it to the fullest. Smile always! (my next policy) even when you are feeling down. sometimes, it can just make me feel better. You should try!! smiling is an awesome magic. itz simply enchanted as it affects the people around you. observe it~~
ermmm what else....this is long enough to last for a few days right?????
i'll hit back in soon when i have more to say...;)
~astalavista~
**********happy blogging_09** :)))))
name--kameelia....
*famously* known as kameelia (back in school), in college its just kamy/camy. i have some non-frequently used nick such as emmm...Millie, Emilly. Emily came from the Exorcism of Emily Rose..lolx..it waz from my friend who was obsessed with that movie. Allright, born in the month of May, date 28th and in the year 1991. Live with both my parents (except for when im in college). Have an older sis and a younger brother. i live by plenty of policies, one of it is family first. more policies as i blog ;)) (so tune in often :P)
i have dreams..i dream all the time..i have some ''impossible'' dreams. cuz we dwell in the world where some dreams needs attributions from other characters and where im at and with whom im surrounded with..its just equal to impossibility ~)
im 18, naive at times bt aint as naive as i was at the age of 16. i learn a lot as far as i could recall but i know there's more to learn. i have my ups and downs. who doesnt??? we dont talk bout things that hit us hard in our past. do we??? people say 'FORGET YOUR PAST'..n i say 'action speaks louder than words' ;)
i believe every little things intertwined with something else. like....me and myself. (dunno if u get me but im just writing my heart out ;) ) i believe in miracle very much (even when othrs dont) and most importantly, i believe in God and both my beloved parents. im learning the meaning of life as i live through it every second. im trying to understand myself at all times. im afraid of CERTAIN things in life..and that will be a SECRET. :P hehe well, yeah im a little secretive! so take a little effort to know me!
im flexible as in anybody can befriend me. do i judge my friends???? yup i do! bt im always searching for the positive attributions in them. i cant spend time listing down their negativity..that's not call life..and plus there's plenty of people to do that. so ill do something different. hehe.
my hobbies..i cant really list 'em all down cuz i have such a long list..Basically, i love anything that involves a great expenditure of adventures ;) such as travelling. i have a list of places that i dream off..list is actually in my head. shall i list it down here?? hehehe..alright Pakistan, India, rome (italy), switzerland, australia, singapore, and of course dearest Macca.and the list shall go on.....Pakistan and India---thats where my ancestors are from and i still have relatives in pakistan at lahore. so, i have to get to know them or else that will be one wasted part of life. i love psycology and predicting the thought of others and basically reading out their characters..but i have friends better than me in doing that. im nt a pro but i guess i just enjoy part of it. lolx. i play the guitar and sooner or later it shall be the piano too. Musics--real important!!! it colours a dull life. i listen to all-all-all sort of songs by various artists and whats playing on my hp depends a lot on my mood! ;))
yep, i find every second of life very important and live it to the fullest. Smile always! (my next policy) even when you are feeling down. sometimes, it can just make me feel better. You should try!! smiling is an awesome magic. itz simply enchanted as it affects the people around you. observe it~~
ermmm what else....this is long enough to last for a few days right?????
i'll hit back in soon when i have more to say...;)
~astalavista~
**********happy blogging_09** :)))))
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